Advice from a spider
I spoke to a spider.
They usually scare me.
I was so exhausted from spending 5 days sitting with my dad as his health was declining. My heart was so sad. Would he be OK as he transitioned? Was he scared? We had spent those days with me talking and him listening. Once in a while he’d become aware and acknowledge my presence and the energy I kept sending to his heart and soul.
It was late at night, and I was at his home meditating, doing the qigong we used to practice together. When I looked up at the ceiling, there she was. Floating back and forth with her web strands, across the ceiling with the wind of the ceiling fan. I thought – OMG she’s going to land on my head while I sleep and crawl into my ear or nose or something! At first I was pretty freaked out! Finally I calmed down, and said to myself “why don’t you connect with her?” and so I asked to connect with her. I told her I was tired and afraid of her and that I needed to sleep so I could be there for my dad the next morning. I asked her why she was hovering over me and could she please leave me alone.
And she told me: “we coexist”.
She showed me her awareness in 360 degree radar and that she was aware of everything around her and also “just being and experiencing” without such concern as I have. She showed me it like a meditative, yet heightened awareness state, at the same time. She had no ill intention toward me, she was just doing her thing, while I do mine. She told me “just be” and “chill”. She was not concerned with me.
I thanked her for showing me her way of being. And I asked, if she didn’t mind, would she mind moving on her way to someplace else so I could sleep. I turned the light off for a bit and then back on. She was gone.
A few hours later my dad’s spirit woke me up to say he was on his way as well. He woke my sister and stepmother at the same time. We rushed back to the hospice center 10 min after he passed. I sat with him for a while and connected with him as well. He showed me how heightened his awareness had become, so calm and meditative and free. And now he’ll be helping me in spirit as I practice qigong, and I’m grateful that I can feel his support. ❤️
